……all because i chose not to sleep

You have the permission to pinch anyone that tells you sleep is bad… and if they ask you why? just share this story with them lol… don’t bother talking

So last week, precisely 19^th January, 2019… I decided to push myself and I guessed I pushed too far. I had a vigil the night before and after that, I decided to go jewelry hunting (pleasing the client is always and will always be a big deal). I got a free ride halfway into my journey and took public transport to my destination.

For several reasons, lack of sleep inclusive, I couldn’t get any jewelry … but this is not even the fun part lol.

I alighted from the first bus in search of the next, then I heard “Tollgate” …honestly, I remember asking the bus conductor “Sango Tollgate o” … so I’ll assume he didn’t hear. From the get-go, I sensed I was in a wrong bus, but I just couldn’t move my body or mouth… I was too sleepy.

I kept convincing myself that it was probably just a different route… there was no cause for alarm. The funny part, my friend chatted me up on Whats-app and see our conversation below:

Like!!!!!!!!!! I knew I was in a wrong bus!!!! But I just couldn’t be bothered. At some point, every passenger alighted from the bus, I assumed that it was the final bus-stop, so I came down too. However, the bus conductor warmly told me to enter the bus because “we never reach tollgate” and even gave me a more comfortable seat. Of course, I sleepily entered and sat down not even noticing the difference in my environment.

Eventually, we got to “Tollgate” and the driver had to wake me up, in fact, he said, “make I drop you here or for front” and I pointed that he should go further. As I alighted, he said, and I quote “safe journey” lol …. that was my eye opener! I made all the necessary calls to find my way home whilst sharing my fantastic journey. I searched for something (a signpost, street name etc) to show me where I was and I found out I had gotten to Lagos-Ibadan Expressway… long story short, I asked for directions and found my self back home looking battered, hungry and tired……

All I could think of was that…SLEEP IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!…. lesson well learnt 😊

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Have you ever had a bad experience due to lack of sleep? I’d love to hear, please share in the comment section 😊

I LOVE YOU…

Three words, one sentence crushed each girl and made them bitter…. Yes the excruciating pain was also a factor but to align love with such hateful treatment for me was the height. I honestly couldn’t drop my phone all day until i finished the book “Eniola”. I cried but i had to hold tears back from flowing before I’ll be seen as one with a serious issue and needed pity (I was on transit). Next thing you will hear will be “Epele oo, Kilon shele, ma sun Kun o (Yoruba language for sorry, what’s wrong and don’t cry). I laughed and “awwwwwwwed” at the intimate conversations Eniola had with God and prayed to have that level of intimacy. I was hurt for those suffering sexual abuse both male and female and couldn’t imagine the pain people go through. I renewed my covenant to let God write my marital story just like Frances did even though i had done that before because sometimes we say God take the wheel but we still try to hold the accelerator causing more challenges of which i am a victim.

Truth is, the end of July, 2018 was emotionally crazy for me. Yes! I had graduated, Yes! I came tops in my class, Yes! Everyone was jumping and excited. I followed suit in the excitement but i was in a lot of places emotionally and i honestly didn’t thank God as much as i should have. I came out laughing and keeping the perfect smile everyone loved to see but i was unhappy and for lack of a better word, i was in an “emotional rollercoaster”. I travelled for a friends’ wedding and there i got an answer to a prayer i made the week before my arrival at the wedding. Sadly that didn’t take the pain away, rather it became worse. Often times the answer we get from God at the time isn’t really what we want to hear but it doesn’t mean He loves us any less, but at that point that probably was what you needed to begin the healing process. I needed space, i needed time and i needed to be sure God was with me despite how i felt. I had enrolled for a coaching course earlier in July called Immerse based on a friends’ referral #GoodFriendsAreEverything (amazing course by the way!!!…i can give you more details) and i learnt how to be intentional about sharing my feelings. Well, things didn’t get better totally but i began to study God’s word on peace with the help of devotionals because all i needed at that point was the PEACE that only God gives, I needed peace in my mind, in my thoughts and peace that everything will work out just fine.

For a while i felt peace but not totally, however i kept pressing. At some point i just got tired of feeling weird and all, i wasn’t studying God’s word as much also. I stumbled on #WhenFriendsPray on Instagram and noticed Esther Longe would be at the program, awesome i like her, so i decided to go. I got to the venue pretty late because of different forces that almost made me change my mind (story for another day). During the program, it was time to hold hands with someone and activate them spiritually by telling them what God was saying to them through you. I was scared, i felt bad because i wasn’t show i would hear anything for this pretty lady and i felt bad…Humorous God, the speaker began to call the names she heard while praying and she called Esther and also the lady’s name. First thing she said broke me; she said God told me to tell you HE LOVES YOU and two other things. Most times when i feel down now, i remind myself that He loves me. I had honest conversations with God and like a place i liked in this book “Eniola”; i needed God to help His girl’s heart. I also shared my pain with my friends and we all learnt from my mistake and planned to do better. Sharing your pain when led is one of the best ways to feeling better.

The question might be: Are you feeling 100% better, oh no… but God takes you one step at a time. One scripture i fell in love with at the time is that we have a High priest who understands our weaknesses (Hebrews 4:15). It was an assurance that i am not a lost case, He totally gets me! And He gets you too.

This book reminded me of Redeeming love by Francine Rivers and it was just amazing how God sees no brokenness but a child He can’t wait to express His love through… i may not be able to explain totally to you but i pray your eyes are open to His love and through this you experience God as love…. I pray you experience healing just as i am too.

Whatever you might be going through, God loves you and remember there are people who are ready to listen and definitely not judge you. The author of this book is one.

Please download the book on OkadaBooks or click the link to the free download

https://okadabooks.com/book/about/eniola/20144

Title: ENIOLA

IT’S FREE NOW BUT AFTER TODAY, 6TH SEPTEMBER, 2018 IT WON’T BE FREE.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH…YOU DONUT EVEN KNOW *Grin*

 

YOU MAY NOT BELIEVE IT… BUT I LOVE YOU
Hey guys… its Valentine’s Day!!!! Red roses, scented candles, candlelight dinners, wrapped gifts, PROPOSALS!!!! Box of chocolates, yummy cupcakes, handwritten cards and many more will be the order of today (yaay!!). For some it will be pizza, chicken, a bottle of wine and the very important game (Real Madrid and PSG… guys are shouting yasssssss right now lol) with the plus one.
Well in the spirit of love; I have decided to share my “preaching” experience and in that show us our very first love who is really the source of TRUE LOVE. Enjoy!
I finished my exams last week Friday (Whoop Whoop….yes I’m still in school) and I took a much needed break by going home on Saturday. Towards the evening time I received a message (posted below) and I smiled but I was not going to reply until I had fully gotten myself.

Anyways I had to reply, I couldn’t run away any longer as I had told God earlier this year I would stop running. The ministration was fixed to be during our fellowship on Monday evening.

Monday came and I legit fell sick *you can insert a very mean laugh here*… I was tired, I had running stomach (probably an effect of the previous day’s food), headache, my mouth was bitter, I was not in the best of moods and all you can think of; oh yeah i prayed too. The fear was not just because I’m crowd phobic but also because I wanted it to be God’s word and not mine. Eventually, 9pm came; and *drumrolls*….Jesus took the stage!
Did I fidget? YESSSS….
Were lives blessed? I believe so….
Did I die? LOL No I didn’t…

Brings me to the crux of this post…. God’s Love

I began with my story; being born into a Christian home, I was guided by rules and regulations of how to be and remain moral… it was easy to be religious and not have a relationship with Christ; which is core of our salvation. For example, whenever I lied I would feel so depressed like God was super mad at me and forgiveness was far despite how much I asked for it…. Fast forward to University, I attended Covenant University (Best University in the world…Haters will say I’m lying lol). In Covenant, I saw Christianity in a different light; people were talking like they were in a love relationship with God and you hear things like “He hugged me during worship experience”… that shocked me and I wanted more that the surface which was what I had.
We read these scriptures:
John 3:16 (KJV) :
“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life”.
Isaiah 30:20 (KJV):
“And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity, and the water of affliction, yet shall not thy teachers be removed into a corner any more, but thine eyes shall see thy teachers:”
Jeremiah 3:12-13 (MSG):
“Turn back, fickle Israel.
I’m not just hanging back to punish you.
I’m committed in love to you.
My anger doesn’t seethe nonstop.
Just admit your guilt.
Admit your God-defiance.
Admit to your promiscuous life with casual partners,
pulling strangers into the sex-and-religion groves
While turning a deaf ear to me.’”
GOD’s Decree.
“Come back, wandering children!”
GOD’s Decree.

For Isaiah 30:20 and Jeremiah 3:12-13, you may need to read the whole chapter to really understand the depth of love He has for us despite the things we might have done. Despite the sins committed, God says all you need to do is come back, acknowledge your iniquity and I’ll forgive you because He is committed in love to you… awwwwwww that’s just awesome on all levels!

From the three verses and more that the bible contains we can draw out one thing GOD LOVES YOU!!!

We have heard it a lot of times but how often do we receive and actually believe it…. Regardless of what we have done or what we do …He loves you with a love so pure and true. Some people would say, thinking like this is a liberty to sin but really if you genuinely love someone, everyday (like today!!!) you’ll constantly think on how to please and honour your love… sin will be far from your thoughts… rather than being sin conscious, you’ll be LOVE conscious. Also, until we understand God’s love for us, we would
• Remain frustrated
• Assume God is partial as other people are growing and you think you aren’t
• Remain condemned

How do we understand God’s love for us?
1. We need to know the person; if we do not know him, how do we experience His love and also love Him back? On a group someone made this statement that stayed with me: OUR RELATONASHIP IS NOT A CHANCE STORY; ITS A DELIBERATE FAITH STORY…. We need to intentionally say yes daddy, I’m going to live for You and bask in Your love for me… John 3:16 where we read earlier said “…whosoever BELIEVETH in him should not perish, but have everlasting life” … believing is our deliberate action… In three simple words… BE BORN AGAIN
2. Study God’s word… trust me, we are all still growing…start small. Use plans, think of something you’re struggling with and study scriptures in that light (however its not limited to just these two medium).
3. Be amongst the right people…..ALWAYS: this right here is one of my biggest blessings from God. Before the ministration; if you know how I hugged my friend eh…. And she prayed!!!!
4. Write down His promises!!!!! Don’t just read and forget …write it; paste it…read it to remind yourself that GOD LOVES YOU! A wise man said “The faintest ink is more powerful than the strongest memory”

So guys!!!! Love is patient, Love is Kind….God is Love…..In this special day to that the world has tagged as a day to experience love… Remember the very first love…. If you are far from Him….The DOOR is open….it’s never too late to do right and if you are already in a relationship with God….it’s never enough to ask for a release of love afresh.

If you need to get connected to God; pray this prayer:
“Lord Jesus, i know I am a sinner, forgive me of my sins, cleanse me with Your blood. I believe You died for me and on the third day, you rose again that I might be justified. I therefore accept you today as my Lord and Saviour and I thank You for delivering me from the power of sin and satan to serve the living God. Now I know I am saved, I am born again and I am now a child of God, Amen.”

Yaaaay… welcome to the most adventurous journey of your life (if you need to talk, you can send me a mail; estheramahsola04@yahoo.com)

My valentine message is: Get connected to God today…let this be your love story…. Share love to people around you in the smallest possible way… share love to that special guy/lady (don’t make it one-sided) and don’t even give me the excuse that there is a game today. Better go for lunch since dinner time is occupied lol.
Key point…. Be love conscious today and every other day….